A Moment of Awakening
On this day 20 years ago I believe I almost left this world.
Below is a post I shared privately three years ago, but since I set an intention to be more authentically vulnerable in this new year, and because it is the 20 year anniversary of the experience I had, I felt drawn to sharing it more publicly.
Below is a post I shared privately three years ago, but since I set an intention to be more authentically vulnerable in this new year, and because it is the 20 year anniversary of the experience I had, I felt drawn to sharing it more publicly.
For some time, I have been feeling a pull to share something, but have been too afraid to do so. I told myself that it was because I was in a “professional position”, but deep down, I think I held back because I feared judgment from others.
But for the reasons I will share at the end of this post, and regardless of the fluttering in my stomach and the quickening of my heartbeat right now, I am deciding to be vulnerable, and honestly and authentically share part of my life story with you.
Yesterday, as I was journaling about what is currently happening in the world, I had the image of being shaken awake. It took me back to a powerful awakening that I experienced seventeen years ago, in January 2003, that forever changed my outlook, understanding, and mindset about life and the world we live in.
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I haven’t shared this publicly, but prior to that day, January 5, 2003, I had been in a dark and destructive spiral of substance abuse for a period of two years. It had reached the point where I was endangering my body, mind, and spirit over and over again.
The amount and combinations of drugs I was using, and the frequency of the use, was becoming more and more dangerous. Deep down, I knew that I was trying to destroy myself.
And on January 5, 2003, I believe I almost did just that. I had a near-death experience – or what I’ve since come to view as a spiritual awakening.
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